Do you hear me, I'm talking to you...

It has been two whole months I'm in the training! Time pass really fast! Book out day seem to be getting faster every week but Book in day seems to be fastest. always looking forward to meet the girls :)

We have PT, drills and classroom lessons almost everyday. It was fun running outside HTA especially to Qian Hu fish farm. Driving lessons are getting more stressful now cause our TP is on the 8th Jan. Plus the upcoming Drill test and kayaking comp, Jan is a busy busy month! training in HTA is awesomeee! :)

My life has sort of fall into place, bit by bit. At least having a stable career to feed myself and my girl now. it's wonderful to use the money you earned by yourself and buy things to pamper yourself, daughter and the family! :) but at this rate I'm going, very fast my bank will be empty!

Having block leave till thursday, like happy only! :)

I have cut short my hair, removed my manicure too.. Look worst than Dora the explorer. Look like mushroom head!! Now I regret laughing and calling ppl mushroom head :(

I feel like whining a whole lot of stuff right now!! my hair, my nails, my phone, my psp, my facebook, my ladies night, my bed, my toilet, my bolster, my water heater, my suppers and my silly mushroom :(

BUT. I will do good and make you'al proud!!

"A force for the nation!"

Finally after a looongggg wait, I received a call from Police recruitment! Police training starts next Weds! Can say goodbye to my long hair, manicure, ladies night, facebook, ebuddy and keyboard piano :(

New maid is also here! Ends our 4months of sufferings! Hip hip hurray! My maid's a pharmacist back in Sri Lanka! Cause of money..then she became a maid..

Awwwwww...Gonna miss my mushroom head. Lesser time with burden :(

I think I need to go church and pray.

FCUK.
always rmb that this world is unfair. no matter how peace loving you try to be. someone out there will always try to test your patience. Simpleminded and naive. NO MORE. Unless you have walked in my shoes, how would you even know. DO you even have the right to comment and condemn. Much more an outsider who knows nothing base on just biased info. There are 2 sides to every story. You don't even dare to put your name down.

faggot, If i really need the world to feel sorry for me, Why wait till now?! I could have easily done that 8 months ago. Making the world feel sorry is the last thing I would ever do. You have not been in my shoes neither did you went thru my life story. Humiliations I had suffered, I swallowed them. Cause that's the only way to peace and harmony. Everybody knows my character, to avoid conflict even by the means of silent humiliation. I stand strong, I do not need the world to feel sorry for me.

Words of poison, evil hearted, calculative, poisoned mind. Why can't you be kind, peace loving with a magnanimous heart. Evil begets evil, hatred begets hatred. If I were to be like you. When will all these ever end? HOWEVER, if you wanna start this war, I'll play along with you. Never underestimate a woman. Especially a woman who had been and seen through the worst.

since young..you both always thought you knew what was best and good for me. I followed your way and guidance through. Study well, perform well in both academic and well being. Everything was to make you all proud and have a 'face'. Many times you compare, whoever whoever son/daughter alr in Uni, working as what what what. I could only say, ya, your daughter is a useless person nothing to my name and a single mum that is so shameful to you both and this family.

You both tried so hard to protect me. yes "protect". so much so I feel like I couldn't breathe I could die. which "normal" house would have a security camera at home? which normal house would be additionally locked at night only the parents have the additional locked key. Which parents would call up and harass friends and even bf. Even handphone, detail billing of the numbers I come in contact with. Which parent would locked the internet and allow access only 10am- 2.30am. Whenever I don't do things against your way, confiscate handphone, punished to stay at home. Until recently I found out that even my SMS copies incoming and outgoing are all sent to your email. to what extent do you wanna bring me down to?? All in the name of "LOVE"? so that I wouldn't be harmed would walked the so called "correct" path you both think it is??

Even facebook, blog, you warned me not to post anything regarding the you both or family issues. If not you will threaten to shut dunno what. it seems as though you both are making use of whatever I'm surviving on you now as a threat to get what you both want. If anything I do is not along your "correct way, correct path" it would deem as unfilial and rebellious. All of all these makes me shut away from you. It hurts.

mr postman.

Dear Mr postman, if you ever received a letter on government service please please send it to my mailbox quickly!!

I'm waiting and waiting for that letter everyday!! Holding my hopes high! wanna quickly go in and train and get tekan. WhoHoho! letter quickly come k?

hurray! going for SPF medical examination next monday @ OUB centre. Shucks. I don't wanna draw blood :(

Thanks silly mushroom! For bringing suckway lunch to me. Awww so sweet and leaving me with 3 inch of sandwich to eat. Hope you like the minced meat porridge with mushroom I cooked! Cause you practically ate the whole pot :)Work hard on the superman and that duet on the keyboard kays! ♥